Week Three – Journal
BUS 119: Principles of Personal & Organizational Leadership
The topic that I would like to discuss is the values and purposes in life analysis that
we just examined in the Week 3 – Discussion 2 Forum. I struggled with that posting
because I feel a variance with the values instilled in me at a younger age versus what I now
consider true to m. My parents were family-oriented, and my mother was an extremely
proud woman. My father taught us to work hard and offered us stability. I came from an
upbringing that teaches women to be subservient to men, and this was exemplified by being
the only girl with four brothers. My mom and I did all the chores and served the guys first.
When I was married and had a son, this mentality continued.
This Hispanic catholic primordial conditioning was a great excuse to ignore what my desires
and intentions for my life were. I have to admit, at this point in my life, I am in a selfish
period. I am concentrating on myself for the first time ever. So, as I’ve learned to live alone,
I am focusing on what the purpose is to my existence.
When you give most of your life to others and realize that you still have to make
something of it with what you have left, you have this need to be less generous with yourself.
I understand that I don’t live on an island and that I am in the capacity of a leader at work
and in particular social circles, and of course, to my grown son. The conflict that I am
experiencing does concern me because I’m pursuing a degree in management. How am I
supposed to be a good leader and be mindful of others’ needs when I have so little left of